How do you reply to such text messages? A plethora of "what ifs" and 'I should've" went through my mind. But I know, there is nothing I can do to bring her back. My heart broke into a million little pieces.
Yes, she was over 90yrs old. Yes, I didn't live with her. Yes, I won't be the one having to take care of her day in and out had she survive the failing kidney, infections and what nots. But she was the last grandparent I had, I used to go back to her during the weekends when I was in school. Thus, it's so damn hard to let go.
I want to remember, and I'm glad my father and uncle wanted the same thing and I had the chance to shoot the funeral. I didn't manage super awesome shots, and I didn't get many photos. But what I do get, matters.
I'm sharing one here, the rest are for our family.

I will be back, we will all be okay, I promise. My heart will heal, I know that. I just want to share this part of my life with all of you. Hard as it is, I'm letting her go.
Just give me some time. . .
Mother, I will miss you, always.
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I'm sending you a big big hug! I'm thinking of you!
Sorry to hear about your mil. Hugs to you, keeping you and your fmaily in prayers!
oh hun, i had feared the worst, and I am so sorry for your loss, sending my love and condolences to you all
xxxx
I'm so sorry for your loss.
Hugs ♥...
So sorry for your loss, Sasha. Thinking of you and sending hugs your way.
My dear Sasha, so sorry for your loss. My condolences to you and your family. Big hugs. Take care of yourself.
I'm sending you a hug, my sweet friend. I am so sorry for your loss.
I never know what to say when somebody is hurting so much, especially after losing someone so dear...but know that I have you and your family in my thoughts and I will keep you in my prayers.
I am so sorry for your loss S - stay strong and big warm hugs to you. I'm here if you need anything. :)
elaine t
Oh Sasha sweetie, I'm so very sorry for you and your family. You take care of yourself.
hey girl sending thoughts and prayers your way wish i could be there with you through this difficult time xoxoxox
Darlin, I will pray for you.Take all the time to pour your emotions and when you find your way back here again...we will always be here to give you a big hugs! Sending you lots of love hun. Prayers for you and for your family!
Sasha I am so sorry.
Thinking of you and wishing you comfort and healing.
x/o
Denise
I am so sorry for your loss. You can't rush the healing--take all the time you need Hoping you find comfort in your memories of her.
Hugs
~Michelle
I'm sorry for your loss. You know how much we're all thinking of you!
I'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother's passing. Take care.
Sasha, I'm thinking of you and your family. So sorry to hear about your loss. ((((Hugs!))))
you're in my thoughts, sasha!!
i'm sorry for your loss and know exactly your feelings. my grandmother went to the other side in december - 103 years old.
hugs to you, sweetie!!
My Grandma died last month so i feel for you, Sasha ! I'm so very sorry for your loss ! Take care of you and your family !
Condolences,
Ingrid
Hello first i want to give you my condolences and sorry for loss.
And i want to thank you for your kind words on my blog.
Greetings from Holland,Lean
Ooohh.. I'm so sad to hear this, I condolence. I can really imagine that your heart is broken, and of course you need some time to find days that will be better.
We will all be here and wait for you when you are ready to get back and share your amazing talent with us all, but please take your time, we will wait for sure.
It was a beautiful picture you took of a special and "difficult" moment. Thank you for sharing.
Hope there will be better days for you soon, just take care of your self and your family.
*hugs
Sorry for your loss. Granparents are special people. Bises, D
wow. what a tough month it has been for you. =(
dont be too sad though, after all 90 birthdays isnt too common lately.
sorry for your loss =(
Sending you love & hugs!! Sorry for your loss.
I am sooo sorry sweetie!
Big big hugs to you!!
sha, time is all that matters to heal those wounds..i know you could do that...hugs babe!! coffee one of these days, ok!
Oh sasha, i'm so so sorry, my friend. It IS so hard to let go of those we love and who have been such a big part of our lives. Take your time, girl, grief doesn't come easy. I'm glad you got to shoot the funeral, though, as hopefully that gave you a little bit of peace. Thinking of you, girl!!
*hugshugs*
Sorry to hear about your loss. I hope time will heal your heartache. Hugs to you, Sasha.
i'm so sorry for your loss! i'll be praying for you to heal!
I'm so sorry for your loss, time will heal your heart.
Sending you my love en condolences.
Astrid
The Netherlands
P.S.
Thanks for your sweet words on my blog I want to thank you for your kind words, on my blog.
*hugs*
(and I hope I don't insult you (but then again, you know me????) but the photo is so beautiful, it's such a fascinating and really beautiful tradition... ugh *hugs again* :P
Shasha.. I have had you on my mind so much. I feel your pain friend. Loosing someone who you love so much and has been a part of your life from the begining..is SO hard.
Keep all those precious memories of her in your heart... you'll have those forever! Hugs friend!
My condolences to you dearie. It's trully heartbreaking. Thanks for the hugs too and my thoughts are with you as well.
Take care.
So sorry to hear about your loss, Sasha. Big hugs to you.
Danielle
Big hugs. And an extra special thank you for a great job even in the midst of all these difficulties. Hug hug.
I'm so sorry and I think of you. Take care of you and your family.
I am hear praying for your heart and mind to have peace. I understand all to well. I love you girl ..
take all the time you NEED FOR YOU.
I am so sorry sweetie - my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Miss you! xoxo
My condolence. u takecare ;)-jaz
*hugs* =)
Oh Sasha I haven't been a very good bloggy friend. I am just reading this and I am soooo sorry. Praying that your heart heals quickly. (((HUGS))))
i am so sorry for your loss. i will be praying for you and your family.
~danni p
I'm so sorry for your loss Sasha. I'll be thinking of you and I'm sending some hugs love your way.
xxx Peggy
sweet friend , HUGE HUGS ! :(
I’m sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you and your family.
I'm so sorry to read of your gran passing my thoughts are with you. cherish the memories happy and sad they are all part of your growing up. These are the things that can never be taken away from us. Your heart will hurt but each day as you remember each treasured moment you will begin to heal. Hugs xxx
So sorry to hear this, I hope your okay. Let’s just be happy from wherever she is right now.
I am so sorry for your loss!!
Take care hun!{{{hugs}}}
Sending you the biggest hug...
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