This layout was created in 2011.
I was struggling then. Most of the time, I felt like I'm the failed member of the synchronized swimming team. Desperately smiling. Waving. Drowning. I kept thinking to myself - Why does motherhood has to be damn bloody hard? *sigh*
Yup. I'm that mom. I had to learn how to be a mommy *no such thing as motherhood and maternal instincts that come naturally for me*. And it wasn't easy. Not at all.
She's gonna be 14 this year. I'd like to think I'm a better mom now, but the truth is that I'm still learning, and the process is lifelong.